The Light Bulb in My Head Came On Today. That’s RARE on Mondays!

All of my life, I have been through various bouts of junk.  Now that I am 50, this has been one of my roughest years (physically) yet one of my most enjoyable.  Aside from the female issues that are also getting brought under control with medication, I am cancer free and my pernicious anemia is now “managed” to the point where I don’t feel so much of that crushing fatigue.  I still get light-headed from time to time but I simply slow down.

I realized today that some people really would like to go back to “yesteryear” and repeat their lives at various points, hoping to avoid making the same mistakes again and again.  With me, this is NOT the case.  I would never want to go back and redo any part of my life.   I think the life I have right now, despite having to write and “broadcast” from the TTRV, my life is full! I am enjoying it. Despite some family concerns, I know things are going to turn around.  I don’t know HOW I know it, but I do.

That being said, all I really need is one thing and that is “NOW”.  Think about that. IF we can’t change the past or alter the future, why the hell do we lose sleep over either?  Seriously people!  Yes it’s Monday, but I hope you all have a great day ahead!  Normally I dread Mondays but I am off today!

Within two weeks, I look forward to working toward my goals again–dropping the weight and getting back into shape!  I haven’t had a transfusion since July too!   Again, have a GREAT day!

 

Good News…

The biopsy was normal. No cancer.  I still don’t know why I kept hemorrhaging. I’m on medication now–progesterone. I will know after my doctor’s appointment today what is going to be done about this freaking huge cyst on my right ovary.  I still strongly urge anyone who is advised to have the biopsy to simply do it.

I had already discussed with my family what course I would take if cancer was involved. Surgery yes–chemotherapy no.  I know people who died more quickly from the chemotherapy than the disease itself–but it is not the rate toward the demise that made me say no–it was their suffering.  Besides, I prefer to let nature take it’s course.   I feel that radiation therapy is like “fighting fire with fire”–and in the case of this, had it come to fruition, it makes no sense to me.

I told my sons if I’m meant to live I’ll live. If meant to die, then chemo or radiation won’t change the outcome anyway.  That is just my view. Realistically, it isn’t that I have a death wish. I just feel that such invasive and painful treatments would be more of a burden to my family.

Now that I got that out in the open, I will update you when I get finished at the doctor’s office tomorrow. I am looking forward to two days with my grandson soon.  Life is good, no matter what hand I am dealt. I always manage and that is what counts.

 

I Am Taking a New Direction

I have decided to educate myself on women’s issues and go head to head with doctors and such that routinely prescribe and do hysterectomies for benign conditions. I am directly affected by this because a doctor told me (without doing ANY tests) that she was going to have to give me a hysterectomy. My response was, “I don’t think so. I’m not your guinea pig.” and I was not happy about “student doctors” observing it either.  Years ago that was the ONLY option available for women my age–the logic being that according to quacks who did this is, “Well at 50 you don’t need those organs anymore.”   This is a flat-out lie from the medical profession.

The truth is, once a hysterectomy is performed a woman’s risk for heart disease jumps to 70%.  Some women experience severe personality changes, including loss of maternal instinct and libido.  Forced menopause also causes issues and makes a woman more vulnerable because she can be more prone to fractures, prolapsed organs, increased incontinence (both urinary and bowel), etc…

These are risks I am not willing to take–especially since 15 doctors were arrested last month for routinely doing these to collect insurance money. The first doctor I went to is no exception. The nurses in the ER are no better. The thyroid and pituitary gland should ALWAYS be checked to see if there is some sort of imbalance.  A cyst can usually be taken care of with meds and minimal surgical procedures.

The archaic thinking that many of these doctors have needs to be strongly addressed. There are more options and more ways to deal with issues unique to the female anatomy.  Men, you should encourage your wives and significant others to seek alternatives because a hysterectomy can lead to a myriad of problems women are simply not informed about prior to the operation. I educated myself. I got informed.  I expect the same level of care and treatment that a 25-35 year old would get–and the same options. Anything else discriminates based on age.

IN fact, it should be required that hysterectomy should only be used as a last resort in ALL cases. where no cancer is involved.

For now that is all I have to say, but I will keep everyone posted on what I learn on my journey.

 

What Will it Take? Too Many Kids Die from This…

People need to watch this and PLEASE share it! So many kids die in hot cars…Having lost a child due to a miscarriage years ago, this made me cry buckets tonight. Get your Kleenex. People who are this careless make me angry to this day.  I know people who are struggling to have children who would never dream of doing this to ANY child. Maybe this will make a young mother think twice about locking her kid(s) in a car to just “run in for a few things”.

Many toddlers die from vehicular heat stroke,  people….

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XNDWN8KDVSM#at=370

 

It’s the “Nightlife” Special”…

This is one of my FAVORITE movies…

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PIGLOd241xw

 

How many of you have actually seen this? Well, it came to mind again recently.  On July 4th weekend, I truly regret that I had not one single fifth to enjoy…In fact, I haven’t had a drink in months and when I do, it’s on the weekends–usually or on days off. However I did receive 2 pints of the “Nightlife Special” (A+)  courtesy of the Martin County ER in Stanton, TX. The staff was great!

To begin, I felt really weak and light-headed at work. As I was driving toward Stanton, I knew something wasn’t right. Things started to appear to be “brighter” than usual…I decided to get to the ER.  When I got there, I revealed that I had been bleeding for 30 days straight–no stopping in sight.

They did blood work and I waited for what seemed like forever, but it really wasn’t that long, I don’t think. I got frustrated and walked to the nurses station. I cut up with them a bit and had them laughing before the doctor came back in…He looked at my blood work and said, “I do not see how you are walking.”  I asked him what he meant and he told me “Your hemoglobin has dropped to 5 and the normal is around 15.  You need to get back on the bed. You need at least 2 pints of blood.”

Well, dammit…Can’t blame this one on Vlad…Poor guy…I asked the doctor, “Well does this mean I now qualify as an honorary cast member of the “Walking Dead”?…” He just smiled and said, “You’ll feel a lot better when you get the blood.”

Then I called my boss and filled him in on the details since I had left work.  He’s a very gracious man and he knows I”m scared to death.  On top of this, I am a needle phobe. Skip the lollipop, I’d rather get booze infused, myself. That is how much needles frighten me.  Needless to say, by the time I was done, I felt like a used up voodoo doll with no place left to stick.  I have a follow-up on the 12th and I’m going to have to see a gynecologist and a hematologist at some point.  As it turns out I have pernicious anemia.  A former doctor took me off of iron, without doing blood work and diagnosed me as going through menopause. The diagnosis is incorrect.  I’m NOT going through that as previously thought.  However, this anemia is dangerous. I always did take iron and B supplements, but had stopped the iron. That is what brought me to this point.  To date, I don’t recall ever having to have had a blood transfusion until now, but I feel it saved my life.

When I called my sister she told me that I was diagnosed with anemia as a child. I must have been very small because I don’t remember it, but I am glad they told me now.

Gee…This could have gotten really, really bad…In fact, it did.  I’m on light duty for a while and I am trying to get my system back on track. That being said, please keep my family in your thoughts as they are very concerned. Until then, here’s my favorite clip from “Nightlife”!  Ciao! And check out the scene with the housekeeper! :

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Jp-HX9ETKNw

 

Anemia is a very serious thing…

The other day I had to go to the ER.  The staff was great. As usual, my dry wit kept them in stitches, until shit got serious.  I was walking around because sitting still is next to impossible for me and the doctor looked at me and said, “I don’t know how you’re walking right now.”   I said, “What to you mean?”  Then he said, “You need to go into the room. Your hemoglobin is at 5.  That’s not good.”

After asking him if I now qualify as an honorary cast member of the Walking Dead, I went back to the room and waited a bit.  I thought I’d get a shot and go home but I soon found out my condition is more complicated.

My body doesn’t absorb B12 from what I eat, so my body didn’t make enough healthy red blood cells. I got on the phone and found out from my mom that I was diagnosed with Pernicious Anemia as a kid. Well, I don’t remember much about my childhood but this stuff can get lethal–seriously.  Not getting enough B12 can lead to organ failure.  My condition was worsening and something had to be done.  The next thing I know, I got 2 pints of blood put into me.  I was also told that my iron was way too low even though I take iron so I have to up that dosage. My body doesn’t absorb that very well from food either.

On top of all of this, as it turned out, my excessive visit from Aunt Flo (as a dear friend calls it) was actually hemorrhaging.  However, I was right about ONE thing in all of this…I am NOT going through menopause yet.  For that, I did get a shot and it’s finally coming to a trickle and I was told it will stop it. Thank god…

Anyway, this weekend was an adventure I’d rather not relive so I am going to be very proactive from here on in. I really thought my fatigue was in my head and the cravings for ice were from the intense West TX heat…I learned the cravings for ice is a condition called “Pica” which is one of the symptoms of the anemia when it is getting very bad. My co-workers had also noticed my energy level was down and I was (in their words) “chalk-white” for some time. They had told me to slow down for a month now.

The moral of the story is, “Don’t assume anything is in your imagination. Most likely, it’s not. Take care of your body because you only have one life and to not take care of these things early is a wee bit on the insane side.”

 

I am Severely PO’d! Heart worms are Preventable People! Inside Pets can get them too!

Where do I begin?  I have dealt with a lot of crap in my life, but I am so angry today, I don’t know whether to yell at someone or what!  I am going to make this short and to the point.  Heart-worms are preventable.  They are caused when animals get bitten by mosquitoes (per my vet) and I am highly pissed that our family pet, Buddy has them.  This dog has lived with other members of my family for years and we always kept his heart worm meds and shots up to date, but I found out that over the past year and a half, he hasn’t even been taken to a vet because he is mostly an “inside animal”…

I took Buddy in today for his shots and his blood test came back positive for heart worms.  After reading the treatment instructions, I realize that curing him can make him just as sick.  I have to take that chance though.  He’s family.  At 12 years old, the treatment (which takes 8-10 weeks) is going to be hell on him and we can’t let him do anything more than go outside to relieve himself during the time of treatment as anything else can be too strenuous on his heart.

Bottom line:  GET the animals checked for heart worms and such when you’re supposed to!  Just because the pet stays inside doesn’t mean that they cannot get them!  I don’t know if I want to yell at the family or what, but I know that I have the money and I am taking this dog to the vet. He will be taken care of or he’s moving  in with ME! Period! End of discussion!  I shall go FUME now!

Buddy at Christmas 2010 I won't say who those are that are caring for him, but they are getting a piece of my mind! Sorry.