I remember being around 5 years old and bugging Dad to take me to the store with him at one point when he was working on these. He’d take us to the store, Mann’s Grocery and we’d get either a Nu-Grape, Pepsi, RC or a Dr. Pepper on those hot summer days. He built these so we could get in and out house easier–especially since his youngest daughter (MOI) was such a bloody clutz… Today they will be covered–but not removed. We are having to put in a wheelchair ramp for my mother now.
Ironically, he built the steps for the same purpose this ramp is being built–to make going into and out of the house easier. My mother fell a few days ago and has broken her back in two places. Age has ravaged her, but it has not broken her spirit. She is slowly making her way up another set of steps into the unknown–just as all of us will. Hopefully, we’ll have her around for a while longer. I’m not ready to let her go. Thankfully she is up, alert and eating again but we were very scared at first.
And soon, these steps will be covered, hidden from sight just as my dad now is. Yet I feel his presence in my life today. I remember the love he had for us, not wanting to see us fall and get hurt, when he put those steps in. The ramp being put in is also a poignant reminder that one day I will be an orphan, and the little girl in me is not ready for that right now anyway. For now though, I am grateful that the day I dread is not here–and hopefully not for a very long time.