We Still Have Then but All We Need is Now…

In 1982, I gave birth to my son, Eric…I had him on my 20th birthday in fact–and even though there are times when the old grouch gets pissed off, he’s still the best birthday present I ever had.   I didn’t give a damn about the politics of the day. I didn’t give a damn what people thought of me too much then–and still don’t…Gee…I wonder where 2 of my kids get that from? I’m smiling sheepishly as I remember those days…I liked bowling, dancing, walking about and above all–writing and listening to music.

While 1982 was a banner year, it was also a year of loss. Hell, we lost Marvin Gaye. Now with all the crap going on, “What’s Going On?” really comes to mind here…Forget the “Sexual Healing” bit…He got a lot of accolades for that one but I still say “What’s Going On?” is one of his best.

I can say a lot about 1982 right now…first it was a “Thriller”…. 1982, I was so “Caught Up in You”.  I loved it loud then, and “I Love It Loud” now.  I wonder if “Jack and Diane” ever got into saying “If You Want My Love” to each other?  If they did, maybe it was in the “Heat of the Moment”.

I do know if they had tried to pass the Patriot Act in 1982 there would have been a loud “I Can’t Go For That” being screamed in D.C.  Has anyone ever figured out what the “Young Turks” needed to be free from yet? Just wondering.  However as far as men and women go, I haven’t heard anyone trying to use “I’ve Been Waiting for a Girl Like You” as a  pick up line in a bar yet…

We have learned that it is best to take the advice Rick Springfield gave us…”Don’t Talk to Strangers” because serial killers do not make it “Hurt So Good” now do they?  Funny how when we were young we didn’t seem to worry about too much of that stuff, or did we?  Well I know I didn’t.  I do know that my exes were never “Always on My Mind” when I got enough balls to say “Goodbye to You”.

Well whatever went on in “Allentown”–it wasn’t “Sexual Healing”…Hedonism was the furthest thing from the imagination in that part of the country as well, I think.  However, there was some “Tainted Love” going on until someone decided to “Shake It Up” a bit when they found out their sweetheart was the “Centerfold”–that is, until someone younger came along and the agent said “Abracadabra” and that model got replaced by a younger one a few years later…

Some also said “I Ran Away” because it was “Hard for Me to Say I’m Sorry”.  I can fully prove that was a lie. I just opted for the “Thriller” of a time when someone asked “Don’t You Want Me”? I said no and then turned back to my ultimate love at the time…I mean, most who know me will be the first to tell you that “I Love Rock N Roll”–which left “Rosanna” slightly perplexed as in counseling, she thought I wanted to be a writer and not a rock star.

In music, there was always harmony between “Ebony and Ivory”–until the hair bands told everyone else to “Beat It”. So what did the rest of us young fools do? We went to “Rock the Casbah” while possessing the “Eye of the Tiger”!  We got so “Physical” in that fight that we left “Billie Jean” perplexed and lying in the dust!

And after that fight, we were “Hungry Like the Wolf”….

Well that was a long time ago. And now that I’ve compiled this morbidly insane  list from ONE video  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XAGYIvg1FHk  in order to complete this writing exercise, with the exception of “Hungry Like the Wolf”– which is included because, quite simply, I know it came out in 1982, I hope you enjoyed this ridiculous trip down memory lane since I was under immense “Pressure” to hurry up and get it done prior to going to bed…By the way, “Pressure” by Billy Joel is not in the video either which surprises me because it was a damned good song!   I should know…I didn’t forget my birthday that year or the fact I gave birth to Eric then!

However, in the present “All You Need is Now”  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0X3O4PCP5MM     In fact, that is all I need too.  Have a great night!

How Times Have Changed…

In 2014, the 3oth Anniversary of Live Aid will be celebrated, I’m sure.  1984 was a self-defining Christmas for me and for a lot of my generation because we were forced for the first time in our hedonistic generation’s existence to think about someone else in another part of the globe. The artists had the guts to put this in our faces and to this day I still respect them for it.

In recent years we’ve seen so much focus on the self among our own youth that somewhere along the road, they didn’t find that same sense of purpose–yet. It appears to me that we are so focused on ourselves and pissed about what our government is doing in this country that we’ve lost sight of ONE fact.  WE CAN CHANGE THINGS–ONE PERSON AT A TIME.  However we must start with ourselves. We can and must  lead the way for a younger generation.  We cannot leave this up to others because it is not their job to do our job. It is up to us to impart a sense of what is good and what is right into our children, our grandchildren and in a few more years–maybe our great-grandchildren.

Have a great weekend, and enjoy the video. I hope it renews the fire in your soul that we had back when were younger.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bjQzJAKxTrE

 

They started it all...

They started it all…

 

31 August 1997 and 14 September 1982…Nana Wonders Who Can Remember…

 

Have you been asked where you were on that fateful night?  I have been asked and I remember it clearly, as if it happened yesterday.  I was standing in line at the checkout at Wal~Mart in Big Spring, TX when it was announced over the intercom that the woman we will always call “Princess Diana” was in a car accident.  A few hours later, her death would be announced.

Her death was not just a blow to her family and friends, but to an entire generation who could now look up to the monarchy in a different light than they had before.  When Charles and Diana married–a lot of us got up early or stayed up all  night to not miss it.  When the two princes were born, we welcomed them into our world as well as their family did.

Diana was also cool and could relate to a lot of our generation as well.  After all, she did get into a lot of the acts that were part of Live-Aid–including Duran Duran. It was through her that most realized that the monarchy are not politicians but they are people. They have feelings, desires, hurts like the rest of us.  I cut them slack then–but still avoided going to theaters and such.  I knew at that time that things were changing with the tide–slowly.

Many a girl wanted to grow up and live the fairy tale life that Diana seemed to have, until it came to an end not too long before she was so cruelly taken from the world.  Was it the paparazzi that was to blame? Evidently even though only in part.  After her death, the reality of her existence was brought to light in an ugly fashion–and then a lot of us realized that while she inspired and motivated us to do good and to try to bring change around ourselves, we were grateful for what we had and we handled our own paths in our own way–which she was able to do before the end.

Perhaps the greatest legacy she leaves is that the monarchy is now more open with the public, and as a result has become more acceptable to it again.  Her brother was right–she will always be “the People’s Princess”…Only Princess Grace of Monaco inspired so many prior to her–this girl included.

She was beautiful and is greatly missed…RIP

Even my three sons felt sad at Diana’s death and got up to watch her memorial service. Their hearts went out to William and Harry, who are very close in age to them. One night they thought that I was in an accident after that and saw a car like mine on the news. They ran up to me and hugged me and were saying, “Why didn’t you call us!? We thought you were in that wreck?!”, etc…This was another moment  I got some perspective and made sure I had a cell phone…

Both women learned to live on their own terms within the circles which they dealt with.  Both were taken much too soon.  On September 14th, that will mark the 3oth anniversary of the loss of Princess Grace…Ironically, I was watching TV when the program was interrupted to announce her death.  It seems that both were lost such a short time ago.  Time definitely does fly, but it has also enabled me to put things in perspective.

So many little girls looked up to Princess Grace…I always thought this was the most beautiful wedding gown I’d ever seen…

Life is too short and precious.  We should be living as these women did live–on their own terms.  That was the greatest inspiration given to me by both being that we still live in an age where in some areas, the desire to do this can make life difficult. I will live the rest of my life on my own terms.

I am grateful to have lived during a time where I was familiar with both princesses.

I think now there is another Queen girls look up to even though she isn’t spoken of much and that would be Queen Rania of  Jordan. This is a woman who actively and tirelessly works to ensure  that there are equal educational opportunities for boys and girls alike.  This often gets risky for her and her husband, King Abdullah II.  However, in the eyes of the west, I believe that they will become icons in our time.

If you really want some inspiration go here:  http://www.queenrania.jo/  I have no clue why she is not covered more by the media in this country.  It is not Jordan that we are at war with.  The goals she supports should be supported by educational organizations throughout the entire world.  Like these other two princesses, she lives on her own terms and she is definitely living in an area where that can be a challenge.

On this day I would normally be reflecting and missing Princess Diana and Princess Grace so much, but not this year…This woman, Queen Rania is giving hope and is a ray of light.  I wish her every success possible, and I am almost certain that both Princess Grace and Princess Diana would be supporting her goals if they were still among us.

This is Queen Rania Abdullah of Jordan and her husband, His Majesty King Abdullah. If you go to their website, you’ll see the work she is doing, and there is also a gallery with beautiful pictures of her family there. Seeing the work she is doing is inspiring and worthy of recognition around the world.

That being said, we should look forward and not dwell so much on what we cannot change. Queen Rania, I think, is also going to impact generations not only in Jordan but around the world.

 

Killing Time–and the Wisdom of Beavis and Butthead, and the “Breakfast Club”

One of the most horrible things about living in our world is that we are slaves to a bloody clock.  Our days are divided up into segments of 24 hours rather than from sunrise to sundown.  If I ever have my way, my day will go back to the natural way it was meant to be.   To be honest, I am mainly tired and ill in bed with the flu as I type this, but I still will type  away.

However I am grateful for all of this because it gives me so much time to reflect.  It gives me time to sit back and just BREATHE.  I love life.   I love the opportunities that are opening up for me–and they are there.  I see them on the dream board I’ve been building onto and adding to for over a year.  Time, reflections and travel are recurring themes on it and I know it will come to pass.

I constantly think outside the box. I’ve never had the opportunity to really study the arts which I find to be fascinating, but I did have the opportunity to read many books, which breathe life into many a subject–if they are able to keep my interest longer than some of the people I have met.  Because of a lot of drama and trauma, I was the reclusive creature in my younger years.  I was a lot like Ally Sheedy‘s character in “The Breakfast Club” too–minus the stealing.  I couldn’t draw like she could–but I could write.  That was my escape from the cruel world in which I lived. I find that this fan made video featuring the character of Allison Reynolds was perfect:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6lPbfshzJ9g&feature=related

To me that was the character, that in real-life, who was probably the most misunderstood and (most likely) misguided among them all.  No one knew what went on in her head until she acted on it.  She didn’t share much until later.  No one knew what pain she went through outside of the school-house walls.  I wonder where she would be in a class reunion today?  I know where I am–usually…Notably absent and with reason.

This is what Allison and I needed to hear when we were younger…Maybe one day if she hasn’t already–we will hear this from SOMEONE:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n1bcQMCZ5gU

I dreamed of one day having the courage to even get in front of people again, which I now have.

“…I am I myself alone…I realize I never need to use no one–money, power, holy roads…Freedom puts my faith in none of the above…”–Duran Duran (From ‘None of the Above‘)…

I can so relate to that song. You can hear it in its entirety here:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4ezrtGrpvSk

I lived that song and I really would like to cover it with an all female band…Growing up in the south has been confining in some ways, but very free in others.  Now before all my Baptist relatives and friends start sending me e-mails, I will say this.  All that song says to me is that we are all responsible for our own paths in life and we have to choose those for ourselves.  Many of us were brought up to be pleasing and accommodating, when in reality, it is that nature in some of us that made us so weak that we reach a breaking point.  We have to walk away in order to find our own answers at times–and it has nothing to do with whether we believe in a creator as much as it has to do with the fact that every person’s steps have to be directed from within.

It is when we follow our consciences that we often come up against stiff opposition from our families and communities and we are forced to conform and be accepted or go our own way and face their anger at their loss of influence over our everyday lives.  They learn to deal with it, just as we learn to deal with the fact that some will never accept us as we are as individuals.

My dad used to really get angry if I failed to call him at least once or twice a month.  One time he actually called the sheriff of the county I live in thinking that I went missing.  I love him to this day for that.  I also miss him terribly, even though there were times he really got upset because he couldn’t influence certain decisions of mine–including who to vote for.  You see, if you don’t vote the way the family thinks you should vote, they think you come close to being a candidate for a frontal lobotomy for the simple fact that you break family traditions–at least it seems that way sometimes!

What blew his mind is when I actually would show him how people he supported actually voted on the issues. After that, he never voted a straight party ticket either–at least I do not think he did.  It was also after that day he finally accepted the fact that I march to my drum and he didn’t have to worry over it.

As I was growing up, women were still being raised to be home-makers…Well, I didn’t exactly fit the mold.  I worked and raised my kids.  Sometimes it involved having 2-3 jobs.  Again, my life was ran by a clock.  People would say “budget your time”…I’d say, “You are so full of it. I work 2 jobs, attend college and am raising kids.  I only have an allotment of 8 hours to budget for sleep–and that is if one of my kids isn’t sick!”

After some of my “friends” had kids of their own, they figured out what I meant.  I wouldn’t trade those days for anything.  They molded me into who I am today.  When I am home sick, my boys get me chicken soup and Gatorade! Gatorade!  The fix all for everyone’s ailments and/or injuries (according to them)!  I think they got that off of Beavis and Butthead to be honest…Want proof?  Here it is!  Here is a clip from the “Dog Bite” episode!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=60GCIZqoVfw

Well, anyway, just because they are grown now, doesn’t mean that things change.  They still need Mom from time to time and it makes her feel pretty good–even though they don’t know it!  I keep it to myself a lot.  When they get sick, I tend to look in on them, but God Forbid that I actually get them medicine!  They refuse to take it for some reason–unless it’s REALLY serious enough to have antibiotics for.  Maybe more of that Comanche blood is in them than I thought!

Well, anyway, life is good…I am happy and I love my boys–as well as my unborn grand child…

I’ll know whether to buy for a boy or girl on the 28th and I’ll spill the beans for sure!  Take care and have a great weekend! I only hope that all the other Allison’s in the world find this sense of peace…

OMG IT is HORRIBLE–Or Is It?

American Bandstand is gone but the memories remain! I remember when Tommy Chong trashed the set, the Red Hot Chili Peppers were on and a lot of other things spanning the 1960’s – 1980’s and a few years beyond.  However some great acts and music came out of it.  This is one:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=endscreen&NR=1&v=Yf_Lwe6p-Cg

No this isn’t the link to the episode, but this is one of the best bloody songs to come out of the 80’s.  I am redoing it–but making it fit ME since I’m female.  I lived it. I had an ex who didn’t like to keep a job–kids or no kids. I had to drop out of school to support him and the kids.  After a while, it was over.

Since that point, I’ve taken care of me and my boys and had a wonderful family who have always helped and been there for me though this whole process.  My sons have grown into 3 young men that I love very much and they understand my viewpoints.  I’ve said before that I’d love to cover “None of the Above” by Duran Duran and “Falling Angel” by Duran Duran.  These were both songs that should have been singles  in my book. This band should have already been inducted into the Rock and Roll Hall of Fame…Good god! They’ve had a major hit in every decade they’ve been on the map!  The only other artist to accomplish THAT feat is Cher! Some of the nominees going in THIS YEAR cannot even boast that!  Having a major hit in each decade is the mark of a long and great career–even with the pitfalls artists go through!  They also came up with the storyline music video prior to the release of Michael Jackson’s “Thriller”. Their singles this year “All You Need is Now” and “Girl Panic!” are very good!  There is not so humble opinion on that subject…

I do write songs as well, but my writing tends to be akin to the angst ridden 90’s style and I was writing that type of music when I was 15 years old–hence my trips to the principal’s office.  That is just how it is…Writing was my world then.  I have since learned to enjoy other things and take up other projects, but writing was, and always will be my first love.

From the times I wax utterly romantic (God I hope not this week!)  to the times I come across like a  b***h  spewing my utterly therapeutic vitriol, it has been a release for me on many levels.  I have used it to kill off characters I created in the images of bullies I dealt with that thought they were God, to create worlds that I wouldn’t mind living in, to reminiscing about time periods I would rather have been born in for the simple fact that I always felt  that I was born either 10 years too late or 10 years too early.  Take your pick.   Like music–and I don’t have a “heartbreak song” or anything like that, but picking up a pen and writing can transport me to a time where I am actually reminiscing about all things good and bad.

Anyone that says keeping a journal is a waste of time, I will say this: Hogwash!  Keeping that journal has given me something to reference when I need direction from time to time because there are times that I am reading back copies of it that I can almost hear the voices of my grandparents, my father, a few wise writers,  or get the gist of what people have gotten across to me in their own blogs after cross referencing to see what led to my writing.  Two Facebook pages got me to turn my life around and many of you know which ones those are.  I had to do some digging through blog posts and found gems of wisdom that I wish someone were there to share with me when I was a child.  I might have had a different perspective about some things and NOT gone into recluse mode years ago.

Now I want to share another blog with you that makes my day.  I love her humor and I love how she can make me laugh even when I feel like total crap!   She and her friend Holmes  post regularly.  Even if one doesn’t agree 100% politically, I can always find something to totally make me smile in there!  I honestly thought they were married to each other the whole bloody time! Sorry Piper!  Here is the link:

http://piperbayard.wordpress.com/2012/01/04/bayard-holmes-post-apocalyptic-management-services/

I love their wit and how they point out historical information that can be found on the stacks at any college library but are yet being pulled out of the textbooks.  Even the original copies of documentation can be found in those libraries and I know because I am such a nerd that I go and look!  I am proud to say that I’ve never found a misquote on this blog!   I am going to be posting on how what went on just prior to the Texas Revolution is taking place in this country right now and that is where the U.S. Government has made a huge mistake with its citizens–and many do agree with the assessment I reached.  However, that is for another blog post.  The similarities are alarming.

However, check out Piper’s post on The Zombie Apocalypse and such too. Those are funny…Like I said, while some may not agree with one another politically, there is no harm in being humorous and these two are definitely that!  Piper, thank you for the laughs and I do support you and Kristen Lamb in your presidential bid! 😉  ***You guys really need to see those posts! Trust me!***  Here is also a link to Kristin Lamb’s blog and she is a total riot too!

http://warriorwriters.wordpress.com/2011/11/23/an-attitude-of-gratitude/

This post also got me to look at things a bit differently.  One thing always leads to another.  Thank you Lauren @ www.fizzgiggery.com for starting me on this journey. It’s been an interesting few years, that’s for sure!  Now that we’re in a new year, may all of you have a great one! Now back to my  “vacation”!

Reflections

Well, another year is all but gone and I am spending some time reflecting on my life and was transported back to one moment.  This was a time in my life where I was busy raising a family, and trying to find some purpose for my existence on this planet–that is, when I wasn’t raising hell over how self-centered people of my generation were and refusing to come out of my rabbit hole long enough to let anyone prove me wrong.  I literally was reclusive. I refused to go to theaters…Refused to go to concerts–with the exception of Duran Duran‘s for the simple fact that I liked how they had the balls to push the envelope and piss people off–e.g.–“Girls on Film“:  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gudEttJlw3s  )  and don’t worry…This is the clean version.  I also like “Girl Panic” because if the critics are going to trash a Duran Duran video–it’s because they came up with something original and new that pisses ’em off all over again. I love it that the band has the cojones to keep pissing them off too.  Why? I’m not a musical purist.

Now it is 27 years later.  The world has drastically changed–and not for the better, really.  Too many people  do not mind their own business, too many countries are sticking their noses where it shouldn’t–ours included.  Some of the problems we saw from the 80’s on have only intensified.  Financial institutions are charging people to have access to THEIR OWN MONEY, which to me = theft.  Too many companies are charging exorbitant fees for using debit cards to pay a bill ($15-25 to make a payment using one is stupid!) and then whining if you say anything about it being “wrong”.

We see more people losing their homes while the political parties are too busy pointing fingers at each other, God, the unions, the weather and–well, you get the picture, I think.  Americans are not content to be simply Americans and unite behind a single cause–which that cause should be freedom from the corruption we see going on in the financial institutions and in the government. Oh NO! Everyone wants their own flags, holidays, and observance thereof.   IT is there. All sides know it but don’t want to face the fact that ALL parties are in on this crap because in the end, they want to be in charge of it!

They thrive on this division only I didn’t see this back in 1984.  This isn’t about left, right or any of that. It is about the very fact that as Americans we no longer unite long enough to accomplish anything.  Yet in one moment in 1984, I was given one glimpse of hope for us all as the human race, and it was when I saw this video and what the artists were doing!  For once a group stood united and brought a little change about in the world–or should I say in MY world?  That group was Band Aid.  Every artist in here and in the later edition which was made in 2010 were being genuine and it showed.

And in 1984, for one moment, I was reminded maybe the world isn’t such a bad place to take part in after all. Here is that video…

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w5cX_ncZLls&feature=results_video&playnext=1&list=PLEDA92BA6B09038AC

Later, I went back into my “rabbit hole” and stayed there until I decided to get my head out of my dark spot and grow up! That was in 2008. Do I regret that? No. Why? Because everything I have come to learn since I came back out in 2008 has put me right where I need to be WHEN I need to be there.  I believe that there is a Renaissance rather than an outright Revolution on the horizon.  People are learning.  This world is not like what I grew up in, and everyone in generations before has passed that bit of news to the next generation in line!  Being that I am going to be a grandmother–I suspect I’ll do the same thing! Have a great week!

Anyone Up for a Little Bytch?

Yes…You read it correctly…I want to get my all female band going.  Here are my requirements…All members must be over 35, have been divorced at LEAST once and really don’t give a crap what other people think because they spent too much of their lives worrying over it.  They must also be comfortable with being called bytches because that will be part of our band name.  If members do have kids, the kids must think their moms are “cool” for this or they will be allowed to force said children  into servitude as our roadies–and believe me, my boys do not want to have to make a middle of the night M&M run to the store! Damned straight!

“Bytch Cassidy!”  Has a nice ring to it, I think…

Ground rules for the first album…Each song has to have the word “bitch” or a derivative of it somewhere.  The only exception will be our cover of “None of the Above” and possibly 1 more cover song.

WE must use the cartoon I drew years ago which depicted an interesting political climate in the 1970’s.  I drew it in 8th grade.  We draw straws for the art on the back cover.

General rules:  Don’t leave the toilet seat up.  Do pick up after yourself and don’t leave money on the bus! It can get ripped off!

Needed:  bass player, drummer, lead guitarist and a possible 2nd guitarist.  If you are good at reading/writing the music, that’s even better.

Management…What the hell?  Deal with that when we get to that point…

Aside from that there is a song right off the top of my head I refuse to do and that is “Fancy”.  I hate that song.  I see nothing so great about pimping out one’s own kid no matter how bad things get. Sorry.

Anyway, there is my take on it…All members must have  a good sense of humor and some dry wit working for them.   A little laughter goes a long way.   Now here’s a clip of that famous, kick ass song I’d love to cover:

None of the Above–Again…This is one of the best songs Duran Duran ever did…

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BP4GQPbn4Aw

Now girls! Any takers?

 

 

 

 

For Students: SCHOOL is in session…Oh My God! Don’t Panic! Writing is not THAT Hard!

While some are already in school again, some of you had to go to summer school or had to simply pass the bloody state testing…I realize I go a little deeper into a lot of different things here, but if you can grasp this, you can write stories that will have your teacher going crazy–so be careful not to spend too much time on death and destruction like 3 of you that emailed me did!   Most of you that I talked to can put a sentence together…The art you have to figure out is how to put 5 of those sentences in a sequential order that will enable you to pass the essay part.  Of the 8 of you that emailed me last week, 7 of you can write coherent sentences and paragraphs. However you had your paragraphs out of sequence.  I am going to give you and example of what I am talking about before go any further into this character thing…

Let’s start with this one:  “I like Thanksgiving.”   Okay…There is your first sentence and they want 4 more to follow…So here goes an example:

“…I like Thanksgiving a lot.  During Thanksgiving I get to go to my grandmother’s house and visit my family.  I also get to enjoy a turkey dinner and all kinds of desserts my aunts make for the family!  I also get to play my guitar and sing for my grandfather who really loves music, but cannot play anymore.  It is a holiday for which I am grateful that I get one more day to be with the ones that I love the most!…”

There…Did you notice how I did this?  It covers your 5 W’s in that darned book too.  Now…That is your INTRODUCTION…Next is the other paragraphs, right? Check this out.

“…I like going to my grandmother’s house for Thanksgiving because it is big enough to hold all the relatives that show up, and there is plenty of room at her table for us all to sit.  Grandpa sits at the head of the table, and we take turns helping him to get  to it since he is not used to moving around in his new wheelchair.  When he’s there we all eat until we’re stuffed and then we all just want to take a nap so we go to sleep on whatever beds we find!  Grandpa goes back into the living room and watches T.V. with my mom and Grandma…”

See what happened there?  The reader knows what happens just before, during and after dinner.  Now let’s go further…

“…I woke up at 3:3o and sang a song I wrote just for Grandpa.  As I was strumming the guitar and getting to the last verse, I looked up and saw a tear rolling down his cheek and he was smiling.  He has been sick for about three months, but he always makes time for me.   We could have lost him earlier this year, so I am so grateful that we had this time together.  I hope to have many more of them because my Grandfather has been a very important part of my life!…”

Do you see what happened there?  It became less about the food and the holiday  and more about the love this child has for his/her grandfather, right?  THAT is what those test graders love to see!  That last paragraph can also be used as a great closing, can’t it?    You should practice writing ONE sentence about something important to you every day and practice building on it in a journal.  It does help!

NOW FOR THE OTHER STUFF that 3 other people asked me about:

‎”Even in the most oppressive of regimes, the spirit of no man can ever be caged…Just as the mustang roams this valley, man has to go freely where his spirit directs or he becomes a slave to his own shadow, which repeats lies to him constantly about how past errors are his own fault …”  Prelude to Awakening –Ch  1

This is the opening lines of a book I am working on.  My characters are slowly evolving, but I will use a profiling method to make sure the fit is right for the rest of the stuff I’m putting into it.  Yes, you read it correctly…I’m profiling…To profile a character, you literally have to create a ‘life” for them.  Who are they?  Where were they born?  What about family, IF they have one?  What do they like to listen to music-wise? Food?  Pets?  If they are evil, why did they become corrupted?  Were they abandoned, abused, or just hardened to the core?  Childhood memories–build them for your characters. It does help…YOU LITERALLY create an identity from scratch and make it real enough that even if you don’t  specify–let’s say–that they hate liver, it will come out in the story in another way.

Question one:  Could this person really exist?  If you need to ask that, watch “Stranger than Fiction“.  THAT will blow your mind.  Your character’s  profiles should be so believable that a stranger would think you were speaking of a real  people if they saw your notes lying about.  God help you if you are a student and it is your mother (who cleans up your room because YOU never do)  that finds a particular passage that mentions how a fictional character likes to sunbathe nude, but your mom actually thinks you’re writing about the minister’s wife two doors down because of everything else you’ve got thrown in there!   If you are writing something based on ANYONE around you and you are still attending school, I only have three words to share until it’s finished and someone you know you can trust reads it for you:  “Hide that crap!”  I didn’t and ended up in the counselor’s office at least 3 times a month all through High School.  This is especially true to you young men and women who love to write rap songs. God knows what they’ll think–especially if you live below the 36th parallel.

Just remember one thing when you are putting your heart and soul into anything you write:  “…Every moment that arrives you’re the greatest thing alive…” and it might get you through the day…Thank Duran Duran for that song “All You Need is Now”.  Give it a listen.  It’s about NOT giving up…If you’re ready to toss your manuscript or your paper, essay, etc…Then you do need to give this song a shot!  If you are writing for your own enjoyment, it’s even better because you don’t feel pressured to come up with the wording all the time–eventually, it will flow.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VvqnJ8AGhFg&ob=av2n

So now you are dead to me…

You may be breathing, but you are dead to me.  Every lie that you sold makes me very afraid to open my heart, even though it is closed to you for good.  I worked my way through the muck and lies and got to the point to where I am somewhat content with my life, yet your ghost seems to be talking through some of the people I meet.  I hear the hooks you threw out when asked certain questions.  I can now see that like you, some of them are looking for an arrangement.  I don’t play that game anymore.  I really don’t need to be in a “relationship” to validate who the hell I am.  I don’t need a “security blanket” either.

As a result, life is good.  I rose from the ashes to discover my own way of expression.  As the blood runs hot in my veins and through to my pen, I have also found that I need nothing–not money–not power–nothing.  It all goes back to one song by Duran Duran.  “…Freedom puts my faith in none of the above…”

Have a nice life.  I truly hope that you are blessed.  I know that I am truly blessed now that you are only a dark page in a dark chapter of my personal History.  Right now I am content to stay on the page I am on.  It is blank and waiting for me to fill it. It will be filled–on my own terms and in my own way.  Goodbye to you…

With that, I close with this…I’d love to re-make this with an all female band–speeding up the rhythm and totally rocking this song out to the max!  This song just totally kicks ass.  There is also much truth in it, whereas I have yet to discover the truth in your lies…That being said, I am changing the phone number.  I don’t want to hear any more from our “mutual” friends who are also looking for an arrangement now that they know that I have kicked your ass to the curb.   That makes them pretty low on my priority list if you ask me.  After all, if they were YOUR friends, they wouldn’t be trying to put the make on me  knowing my sentiment on the matter, right?  Then again, the fact that they are YOUR friends only tells me that it doesn’t speak much to their character…Sorry but it’s true.

This is sort of like a divorce–only you can have the friends and line of work we were in. I want no part of it ever again.  I want no part of you either. Why? I had to lose myself in order to find myself again.  Once I did that, I realized that I didn’t need you and I certainly don’t need to “fit in” anywhere any longer. I call my shots and I admit my mistakes.  There is freedom in that also–but you will never know it because your whole life has always been nothing but one lie after another.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BP4GQPbn4Aw

 

I have a whole new attitude. For once it is MY life–and I’ll do whatever I damned well please with it.  I know that just kills you since you’ve got some of your friends “spying” on me again.

I originally wrote this in 201o.