Good News…

The biopsy was normal. No cancer.  I still don’t know why I kept hemorrhaging. I’m on medication now–progesterone. I will know after my doctor’s appointment today what is going to be done about this freaking huge cyst on my right ovary.  I still strongly urge anyone who is advised to have the biopsy to simply do it.

I had already discussed with my family what course I would take if cancer was involved. Surgery yes–chemotherapy no.  I know people who died more quickly from the chemotherapy than the disease itself–but it is not the rate toward the demise that made me say no–it was their suffering.  Besides, I prefer to let nature take it’s course.   I feel that radiation therapy is like “fighting fire with fire”–and in the case of this, had it come to fruition, it makes no sense to me.

I told my sons if I’m meant to live I’ll live. If meant to die, then chemo or radiation won’t change the outcome anyway.  That is just my view. Realistically, it isn’t that I have a death wish. I just feel that such invasive and painful treatments would be more of a burden to my family.

Now that I got that out in the open, I will update you when I get finished at the doctor’s office tomorrow. I am looking forward to two days with my grandson soon.  Life is good, no matter what hand I am dealt. I always manage and that is what counts.

 

Thoughts on the Tests…

I went to the doctor recently and had more tests ran–namely a pap smear and an Endometrial biopsy.  My sister had prepared me for the worst…I was quite prepared to go through an excruciating amount of pain, invent some new vernacular along the way and possibly come up flying off of the table fists swinging.

To understand my anxiety about this, watch this video…

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bmsRqr1rugU

I will say at this point, it was not as bad as it was made out to be but the speculum felt hot! They apologized for that. To be honest, all I felt was some pressure and that was IT.  I did feel some cramping afterward and my ibuprofen took care of that. That could be because of the fact my uterus is probably so inflamed, that wouldn’t make much difference.

I am now waiting for test results.  Guys, if your partner is avoiding having this done, get her to do it regardless.  It might save her life.  This is done a lot of the time to rule out cancers and such and it is not half as bad as she is thinking it will be.  All in all, it took about 5-10  minutes tops from prep to finish.

I’ll let you all know what the results show when I get them. Have a great evening!

 

UP, DOWN, DOWN, UP, UP, DOWN, DOWN, DOWN, UP–and on and on…***For Women Who Know***

The title sounds like calisthenics, doesn’t it?  Well, if it is comparable to mental calisthenics, then you are correct. One day up…One day down…One day more down…One day up a little…One day up…Next day down…etc…etc…etc…

It’s been a vicious two months of flashbacks and such for me. Yesterday, I realized life is wonderful–but at the same time, I am battling recurring flashbacks of a miscarriage I had years ago all due to problems with the carcass.  Why now? I’ve got a lot to do and this crap is not going to go on for much longer if I have my way about it.

I can certainly do without constant reminders of it.  That being said, I have a doctor’s appointment Tuesday.  If anyone would like to take a ball ping hammer and put me out of my misery–I will shut up now….***Waiting***…Oh well shit! Too late!  Doesn’t matter. Someone’s outside partying so I’ll be awake a bit…

I honestly think I should have gone awol and went to the mountain overnight. Next time I will! At least there I can look at  a beautiful ring I am wearing and remind myself it’s all a circle–it will all come to pass and something new will replace this experience and the memory of it in time will be much more bearable, just as Spring and Summer will come after this winter and fall, bringing with it all the beautiful birds and feathers–reminding me that nature doesn’t always sleep.

Have a good night…

Sincerely,

Miss Grumpy…

PS: This should cheer up some of my friends who are screenwriters!

I Am Taking a New Direction

I have decided to educate myself on women’s issues and go head to head with doctors and such that routinely prescribe and do hysterectomies for benign conditions. I am directly affected by this because a doctor told me (without doing ANY tests) that she was going to have to give me a hysterectomy. My response was, “I don’t think so. I’m not your guinea pig.” and I was not happy about “student doctors” observing it either.  Years ago that was the ONLY option available for women my age–the logic being that according to quacks who did this is, “Well at 50 you don’t need those organs anymore.”   This is a flat-out lie from the medical profession.

The truth is, once a hysterectomy is performed a woman’s risk for heart disease jumps to 70%.  Some women experience severe personality changes, including loss of maternal instinct and libido.  Forced menopause also causes issues and makes a woman more vulnerable because she can be more prone to fractures, prolapsed organs, increased incontinence (both urinary and bowel), etc…

These are risks I am not willing to take–especially since 15 doctors were arrested last month for routinely doing these to collect insurance money. The first doctor I went to is no exception. The nurses in the ER are no better. The thyroid and pituitary gland should ALWAYS be checked to see if there is some sort of imbalance.  A cyst can usually be taken care of with meds and minimal surgical procedures.

The archaic thinking that many of these doctors have needs to be strongly addressed. There are more options and more ways to deal with issues unique to the female anatomy.  Men, you should encourage your wives and significant others to seek alternatives because a hysterectomy can lead to a myriad of problems women are simply not informed about prior to the operation. I educated myself. I got informed.  I expect the same level of care and treatment that a 25-35 year old would get–and the same options. Anything else discriminates based on age.

IN fact, it should be required that hysterectomy should only be used as a last resort in ALL cases. where no cancer is involved.

For now that is all I have to say, but I will keep everyone posted on what I learn on my journey.